Few weeks ago, my computer refuses to boot up. Figuring it's an old problem bout the hard drive and motherboard not getting along, my dad asked my cousin-in-law to help me fix it. I tried all i could to figure out what's wrong, but in the end it's off to my counsin-in-law it goes.
Big mistake. Big BIG mistake.
Like everyone else, the most private thing to me besides my handphone.. is my computer. With all my private 'stuff' in it. He said my hard drive kena infected by virus and have to be re-formatted. Asked me is there anything i wanna preserve.
No, i DO NOT have porn in that com (cause i just bought the current 200GB HD not long ago.. but then again, as far as you should know, i'm a good boy!). Just some pictures of erm.. 'minimally dressed' guys i got off the net very long ago (as a reference! i mean, so i can make their bodies my goal.. - erm, that sounded wrong). And a few 'interesting' pictures of me and my hubby =S
I totally forgot about the pictures in my com.. until i got my com back. And i noticed there are some stuff in the Recycle Bin. O.o. I could literally feel my heart stopped beating. Don't know whether i should be grateful to find the pictures there or not.
And from that day on, my parents start acting weird. Dad asked whether i go out with all-guy friends. And every time i go out he'll ask whether it's a guy or girl i'm out with. Mom told me not to buy shirts that are 2 sizes too small. (For the record, i don't wear super-tight shirts.. at least, i'm not THAT gay haha).
Guess it doesn't take much logic to notice the cause of their change. Can just feel their worry that their son may turn out gay.. but right now they probably are in the denial phase. Right now we'll just pretend i guess. They pretend they never found out bout those stuff, i'll pretend i never knew they found out.
At least, till i live independently =S
6 comments:
lol such a bad move. thats y the last time my computer crashed i'd rather bring it to a shop then have my father's IT department check it out. carried the freaking thing all the way to the shop n turns out my ram wasnt plugged in properly -.-
well, to me, since your parents do know about it already, probably in denial, i say you just come clean. Why both pretend to not acknowlegde the fact when its already known? You have a chance to be truthful and honest to your parents. You have a chance to let them know who and what you really are. You have a chance to let them try to adapt and accept you for who you are.
k: haha i thought my com was 'clean'.. i am a good boy after all =P
anonymous: erm, they are more in the 'suspicious' mode right now. wouldn't want to prod them further before the time is right =S. i still have years of studies ahead, and it's better not to have any change in my relationship with my parents at least before i start working..
i totaly agree with you senaiboy ... coz i had my own bad experiences too ... things went so dramatic when they found out ... now they don't trust me as before. so now it is just "you don't ask i don't say" situation or "if you ask, i fake it" situation. or do you think that you are just being over-sensitive??? figure it out before you get things worse.
orange: now dad keeps telling me not to go out with 'some' people. he's treating me as if i'm a 'naive' child again >.<
i'm not being oversensitive tho. years ago my dad caught me surfing gay porn and read my chat logs too.. so i'm kinda 'suspected gay' in his eyes. i know he's worried, but some things can't change just because we want to. it's really a weird situation me and my parents are in now =S
hehe will your parents abandon you if they found out?? I dont think so. My parents had a hard time accepting it, yet they worked through it. Never underestimate a parents love
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