i wore pink today.

A year ago i wouldn't even believe i would be the gay guy i am now. I mean, i'm soooo gay! *hyperventilates* *faints*. Ugh *roll eyes*.

Haha. I used to squirm everytime i think of myself even have anything to do with pink. Guess straight-acting for my whole life has really made me TOO straight =P. Then again i've never thought of myself as being gay enough, even now. Like, i don't look like a gay (too unhot to look like one), i don't act like a gay (too unfabulous to act like one), i don't even talk like a gay should talk like (too.. erm straight to talk like one - i'd never ever mentioned a boy is cute in my life before).

Or so i thought. A few days ago someone told me he'll know i was a gay even if he didn't know better. Blek. I'm betting he's just trying to act smart =P. I mean, i'm sooo straight! I couldn't have left behind any clues about my secret desire to hump every cute guy i see not-so-straight-ness. Ah wait, maybe my hubby being there with me while he's at the side observing would have bring up too much suspicions. I did keep my hands eyes on him most of the time hehe. Hey can't blame me if my hubby's too hot! =P

But then maybe i have indeed 'matured' into a real gay now. What used to be a guy who never bothered bout which clothes to wear out, whether my hair is styled correctly, is that detestable pimple on my face too visible, does this shade of yellow make me look hot or fat, is that cute guy staring at me?, etc, became a guy who's not afraid to tell the world he's pink.

I wore pink today.

Ok, technically it's the SECOND time i wear pink (first was when my hubby force me to on one of our dates). And it's not even MY shirt (was my hubby's). But hey, it takes a lot of gut and ego suppression (i'm reeeaaallly straight-acting, in case you still don't get it) for me to wear pink out with my FRIENDS, ok?

Or maybe i'm not as straight-acting as i thought. Even before i met my hubby, i already have a pink towel. A pink wardrobe. Heck, even my bedsheet is pink. (the wardrobe and bedsheet belongs to my brother! and the towel was bought by grandma for me!)

Damn. No wonder my friends seem so suspicious whether i'm pink.

And just when i decided to wear my hubby's pink shirt, lo and behold, coincidence within coincidence. Me and my friends went to the SAME shopping mall my hubby and his friends went to. And we even went into the SAME restaurant they did.

Fate does play a funny part in our lives, doesn't it?

ps - his friends noticed i was wearing HIS shirt. Haha. One even said it takes a lot for me to wear HIS PINK SHIRT out with MY friends. Trust me, i wasn't late for 15 minutes because i was choosing which shoes to wear.