Valentine's day.. isn't it just another day?

So Valentine's Day has come and gone.. just like any other day. Never in my life had i expect something different on this day.. coz never in my life have i been in love, or have somebody love me. Going to be 20 years old this year. Sigh.

But then i'm still rather new in this PLU circle. A few years ago the most i did was just got into #gaymalaysia on IRC and chatted with a few ppl. I wasn't quite sure why i was there.. looking for sex? Friends? Just someone to talk to? Didn't really matter anyway.. i had never kept in contact with someone for long.

Me as a PLU is different now. Gotten to know quite a number of PLUs.. most of them sound sincere to be friends. Maybe we can go on to be more than friends from there on? If only it's that easy. Haha.. i always thought if two persons like each other, then they can be in a relationship. Seems like there's more to relationships than it seems. I wouldn't know. I hadn't been in one. ^^"

Ask every singles out there whether they are lonely on this day made just for lovers, and if they say they aren't, then it's an obvious lie. Nobody wants to be alone on Valentine's Day. It just .. make us singles feel unwanted. Unloved.

Some ppl tell me i'm still young. Yet everywhere i see couples are getting younger and younger. Make me feel so envious. Then again, they're different. Gay couples are rarer than black sheep. At least, that's what it seems to me. Truthfully, i barely know a PLU who's still in a relationship. Hehe.. maybe those with a partner wouldn't have been looking for 'friends' in the first place, right?

Sigh.. i've always wished .. for someone to be there waiting for me on Valentine's Day. Hope this time next year i won't be wishing that wish anymore.. ^^