A hundred visitors. Oh wow. And i thought this was my private blog. Who are all these people coming over here? What the hell are you all doing here? Are you all so eager to read bout someone else's private thoughts? Busybodies, all of you =P
Nothing much to update bout my PLU life. Actually someone i got to know over axcest was supposed to stay over my place for this weekend. No, not for that. I'm not THAT kind of guy.. well, that's what i'm still having myself believe anyway. I might be in a denial, but i'll deny that as well. Haha.
Said he was coming over to KL for some company training, so wanted to find a place in KL to stay. And he did say he wanted to do it but i never really agreed to it, although i did agree for him to stay over. I had told myself no more, yet the devil in me asked what's wrong with one more? In the end i just 'postponed' my answer to that question of his.
Truth is, i'll have agreed if he had asked me while staying over. Maybe some higher power was hinting me or something, but i fell sick on Tuesday. I was perfectly fine a moment before (my friends were over at my place), and then the next i'm on my bed having this bad headache that just won't go away, and feeling cold outside yet hot inside. And so i stayed on my bed 23 hours a day for the next 2 days. Didn't eat much, almost not at all. Not that i had a choice when everytime i tried to eat i had to force myself not to vomit.
He was supposed to come over yesterday. Heard he stayed at another friend's place coz i told him i was sick and he can't stay at my place. And somehow, i think i'm perfectly alright now.
Am i really naive? Or am i just too nice, because i can't seem to say no to other people easily? Sometimes i wonder if i really need someone beside me to knock some sense into me when i do some stupid stuff, like agreeing for a stranger to stay over at my place. Why do i seem to trust other people so easily? I'll even trust a stranger whom i just met seconds ago. And that has brought me some trouble more than a couple of times. Yet i never learn.
Take this instance. I read a guy's profile on axcest that says he's schizophrenic. Me, being that stupid naive boy i was, messaged him and asked if he was really schizophrenic (i thought it'd be nice if i get to know a schizophrenic, i'm a med student after all). And my response when i see his message was -___-". Somebody teach me how not to trust other people so easily. I'm getting desperate -___-".
Yesterday, another guy from axcest asked me to be his 'kai' younger brother, whatever that means haha (somebody tell me? 'kai' keeps giving me the impression of a chicken lol). Told me he has 5 'kai' gogor, but no didi. My expression was -> O.o , literally. I mean, why do you need so many 'kai' brothers?
Maybe that's just what i need, a 'kai' gogor? Then again, am i just being that stupid naive boy i am again, placing so much trust in someone i barely know?
Somebody please knock some sense into this stupid naive boy.
ps - i told him i needed some time. he said he'll treat me as his didi anyway. ^^
pps - oh btw, i'm feeling really happy right now, in case you thought this is another 'sad' post haha ^^. Why? Because i'd have feel guilty again if that guy stayed over but he didn't, somebody actually wanted to be my 'kai' gogor, some of my friends are already back here in Bukit Jalil (classes gonna start next Monday, finally), and i decided to be a 'good boy' now. 'Bad boy's life just ain't for me.
ppps - more reasons why i'm happy today: i juz got well from being so sick i can't eat for 2 days, it's my Dad's birthday today, met some of my friends and batchmates over lunch and dinner today, and my 'gogor-to-be' juz called me =D
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